i guess what i’m trying to say is i used to be all silly but now im just a cold hateful piece of shit and i feel like i just proved society right… and i hate myself for it
it’s not so much that more so i had my beliefs and dreams. I used to wanna dress and act more feminine… But over the past few years I’ve dealt with so much bs that the dreams have faded to the point that they’re nothing but a mere memory. A small part of me still feels that way but it’s crushed by my bitter nihilism and self hatred… Sexuality i get can change for people (especially during puberty) but at the same time i don’t want to feel like a fraud just because my heads a little f**ked. Also all lgbtq has been a way to help separate myself from my toxic parents (They’re bad kind of christians and literal cultists)
