Wow.. next thing I know, you'll start saying things like "Tone-deaf, narcissist, Karen, ism-this, phobic-that etc." All the while saying that every song sounds like Alice in Chains and should be included in RDR2 and asking who's reading your comment in the current year!
In other words, find some new material bub.
Lastly, You have proved yourself to be among the sufferers. I pity you.
Cult mentalities can be very destructive.
More things are a conscious decision than we'd like to admit due to pride, shame, and social programming. Also, easy to fake. It's what some would call a "sticky wicket" of sorts.
And something that would totally uproot entire industries and cost a lot of people loads of money. That's why we can't even theorize without being ridiculed.
And also, "paraphilias" in general are considered disorders by standard psychology.
