Sad for 3 years? is that even a thing? I ever cried about michigun when he was announced dead. But a week later, i didn't care and leave all of this sadness. It's just useless to grief someone's death that it's not my family for such a long time, like you.
But this community is not even letting him go, still milking his death. I don't even care about skill issue, but putting triple spikes and saying it for michigun is cringiest thing ever this community still does (after worshipping SpaceUK). It ruins level experience, games are for fun and not making you frustate.
Well, if you love him, why didn't you die together with him? XD