I do. And I know exactly what you're saying because I have bipolar type II, and bordered type I sometimes. It has to do with brain configuration, which has pretty much been proved. Being severely abused by a bipolar parent didn't make it better. I wasn't diagnosed until about age 52 after lots and lots of risky stuff & depression. Be sure to get right meds & take them! My life is much better now & I never feel it's not worth living. Just a few people understanding really helps a lot. Hang in there.