Kneeling man

If you're invisible to people, you're not to God, right

We cannot ever be invisible to God. He sees us every moment of every day. I try to focus on this fact each and every day. He suffered for every sin I commit for my entire life. So each time I sin, it adds to the pain I caused Him on the cross. If every time you committed a sin, would you still do it if resulted in the torture of your mom or dad?

I never disappointed my parents doing bad things. Never

I never expected that you did.
The point was our Creator paid in blood and pain for each sin we commit. I use everything I wrote as my method of carefully considering every action I take before doing it for the very same reason. If every bad action I took injured my parents, I wouldn't make them. Same with Jesus.

I'm not sure what you are asking...

I never said He punishes me the moment I sin. I said my sin punishes Him.

But i feel that he loves me...

I feel it.. he loves and understands me more than humans

You believe the omnipotent, omniscient God loves and understands you more than every other human? I believe He does love and understand you and knows everything you have done and will ever do.

Indeed