cant say the same for people who do it cus they truly hate themselves but food for thought

Yep totally useless

yeah I assumed so. my dumbahh thought process was if hurting yourself releases endorphins which makes you feel slightly better in times of extreme self hatred, why wouldn't the release of endorphins through the pain of extreme spice give a similar effect. I've never been severely depressed so my comprehension of it is limited

I have but I never tried spices. Maybe next one I feel the urge I’ll try capcasin abuse, I have a lot of it lying around

I learned the joy of spice doesn't come from the pain itself, but rather when the pain subsides you feel this weird amazing calm feeling where you can look at the wall and not think or feel anything. similar feeling to runners high

Actually true. But I didn’t force myself to think it

I know this is 2 months old, but that's also what self-harm made me feel. I felt joy from both the pain and the feeling after the fact.

Most of my friends who self-harmed did it because they liked the feeling of all of it, not JUST the pain.

I always did it because it felt good and I liked the way it looked, but it became very dangerous once I started cutting to the hypodermis layer of the skin (which is the last layer of skin above muscle).

Anyways, I hope you haven't been self-harming in any way ^^

I sometimes drag a pen against my thigh I never cut or go deep