No, you don't. I'm currently experiencing it, and, even though I've been suicidal and I've enjoyed my own pain for years, this shit hurts and is f**king scary. At any moment I could collapse, I'm bleeding everywhere like I'm constantly on my period, my lower back hurts so bad I just want to get my kidneys replaced already despite my fear of surgery and hospitals, I'm afraid to go to the bathroom, and I can barely walk without shaking and almost falling, let alone walking up/down the stairs. And even if my kidneys start failing (because kidney shutdown is the stage right before kidney failure if you don't take care of it), I probably wouldn't die because, unless it happens while I'm at home, someone would take me to the hospital and I'd survive. Honestly, I've been sadder and my life's gotten worse, especially because my parents just don't care even though I got diagnosed and the doctor said it's serious.
I know you're probably struggling and you might want to die, but this is one of the slowest, most agonizing things I have ever experienced. If you think you want this, go ahead, don't drink water, starve yourself, drink tons of alcohol, do whatever you can to make it happen, but don't you f**king dare go to ANYONE saying you're in pain or whatever the f**k, because you WANTED it.
