TO THE TRANS PEOPLE WHO DOUBT THEMSELVES BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T HAVE DYSPHORIA BEFORE THEIR EGG CRACKED: THAT MEANS NOTHING. FIRST, YOU CAN BE TRANS EVEN WITHOUT DYSPHORIA. EUPHORIA CAN BE A MUCH BETTER INDICATOR. SECOND, DYSPHORIA OFTEN LOOKS DIFFERENT BEFORE YOUR EGG CRACK. I NEVER HATED BEING A GUY UNTIL I REALIZED I WAS TRANS. I JUST THOUGHT I HAD TO TOLERATE IT. I WAS INCREDIBLY DREADFUL OF BEING PERCEIVED AS A STRAIGHT GUY, WHICH LED TO ME BUILDING A GAY-LEANING BISEXUAL PERSONA
THAT DIDN'T FEEL TRUE TO MYSELF AND I FORBADE MYSELF TO THINK ABOUT RELATIONSHIPS WITH WOMEN. NOW I ACCEPT MYSELF AS A SAPPHIC TRANSFEM.
I RATIONALIZED MY GENDER:
I THOUGHT "IT'S EASIER TO BE A MAN, SO I'M GONNA BE A MAN, REGARDLESS OF MY FEELINGS."
THIS WAS ALL DYSPHORIA. "SHOW ME YOUR HANDS" BY MAGNUM; CANDLES. I LOVE THEM, AND I WANT MORE. I STILL HAVE SOME LEFT FROM MY INTERNSHIP AT A WORKSHOP FOR PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES WHERE I MADE CANDLES AND WAS ALLOWED TO TAKE SOME OF THEM HOME.