Day 11 : Gotta stay cool, relax

Day 11, 11/16/25
Gotta stay cool, relax

Today we again, didn’t do very much.
My aunt taught me a solo card game.
I mostly played with the Ibanez today and i’m starting to hesitate A LOT between the Suzuki and the Ibanez because this guitar is so comfortable to play and the Suzuki has the sound of a Martin and has a built in mic.
I got many riffs and chords ideas that i recorded, i wish i had a jack cable to record and wifi to compose a little. We get the wifi box tomorow ‘’normally’’.

We went for a walk in the afternoon, we tried to relaxed today. I’m kinda sorry for my Aunt because she is exhausted. Its supposed to be her vacations and she wasted these days to come help us mentally.

Before we eat diner, we ate some Monster Munchs (dont know if yall know this snack, but its a common snack where i live) and i talked about my big hesitation between the Ibanez and the Suzuki, and so my Aunt says :

Aunt : Oh you knooooow what ? Play us something on both and we’ll tell you what we think.

And so i get the guitars with my Aunt all the way downstairs (my room is the 2nd floor so i have 2 sets of stair to go down). Arrived in the living room, i put my chair infront of the table and i sit down with the Suzuki in my arms. My mother says that both guitars really are beautiful.
Now time to play.
Only one thing, I don’t know what to play.
And then :

Aunt : Oh play us the thing you talked about the… The song everybody plays !

Bro : Yea ! Wonderwall !!!

Me : I don’t have a capo but whatever.

I start playing.
The Suzuki sounds powerfull, magnificient, its clear, it fills the room with vibrations, every notes feels like a good bite out of your favorite meal, you never get enough.
They start to sing along.
We’re having fun.
I end the song when i see they don’t know the 2nd verse.
And so my Aunt passes me the Ibanez, and she quietly observes my every moves.
I again don’t really know what to play so i just play a little chord progression i created.
The Ibanez doesn’t do much sound but you can feel in my way of playing it that i am comfortable with its shape. When i end my playing, my Aunt says :

Aunt : Let me tell you what i think. I think this one *she points at the Ibanez* is the one you’re the most comfortable with, just when i passed it to you, you held it like a baby, and if you say that this guitar makes you do stuff you don’t do on others, then why won’t you choose this one.

Mom : Yea i think she’s right.

Me : Well maybe it also because i played something I created that it sounded comfortable, lemme do one i composed with the Suzuki.

And so Aunt passes me the Suzuki, and i get ready to play a song i didn’t record yet that i named ‘’Under the trees’’. But by far i think it might be my favorite.
And so i decide i will sing while i play the guitar.
I’ve never really done it before, except on the ukulele, but its different.
And so i start to play.
The Suzuki fills the room with a powerfull sound.
The chords sounds divine.
The vibrations i feel from the body of the guitar makes me almost feel in a state of trance.
I feel good.
I start singing, and i realise (not to say i’m the best or anything) i’m singing actually quite pretty good, considering the fact i’ve never practiced this song before.
I sing.
My mom is staring at me with a great smile.
My Aunt is smiling too as it is the first time she hears me sing.
My bro quietly enjoys.
When i finish playing after the first chorus (yea i wasnt ready for the 2nd verse yet), they all applause, and my bro claps the longest with a stunned look on his face (he already heard the chord progression but never the lyrics on top of it).
My mom says :

Mom : That was wonderfull, i loved it.

Aunt : That was really good, but you see, i still think that the Ibanez is to be considered yours, because yea this one sounds really great, but i’m pretty sure when you will plug in this one, you’ll hear its real sound and you won’t hesitate no more.

Me : I kinda have my own idea of how it will sound. It won’t sound as unique as the Suzuki, but its comfort makes it all. And you know what, when i look at it, i realise it is actually quite unique all by itself.
When i look at the Suzuki, well…

Mom : At the end its still a folk ?

Me : Yea exactly, i will encounter many of these, but this one (Ibanez), it won’t be twice in the same life. Thank you all for helping me choose, i choose the Ibanez.

And so, its how i finally decided which guitar i would keep. I still remember few days ago when Oliver gave me both of hem and i was like ‘’Yeaaa i’m pretty sure the Suzuki is the one i’m choosing’’ and Oliver was like ‘’Don’t rush, play them both and think a lot before choosing, both are unique and you want to choose the one that fits you’’. I’m glad i took my sweet time to choose.

The whole dinner i felt joyful, mostly because i played infront of an audience one of my songs for the first time, while singing and playing the guitar at the same time, FOR THE FIRST TIME, and also because i made a decision that i won’t ever regret, for the first time (i mean a decision of this size, one that could literally change my whole life).

My Aunt talked about how she choosed her first Alto Sax (she still has the same one today after like 29 years), she also talked about the fact she played Barytone Sax, which i didnt know.
Then we played some Rami.
My bro won 3 games in less that 3 rounds and we joked about the fact that he should gamble tomorow because its his lucky day.
Then my mom won the 4th game in less than 4 rounds and i said ‘’This is tomorows victory’’ because friendly reminder, tomorow is the post-poned hearing that was supposed to occur 3 days ago.
She keeps saying she is glad that the hearing was post-poned because she had the time to calm down, collect even more proofs against my father, and get even more support.

Anyway, here i am in my bed, writing this with my sleeping Shiba dog plushie, my cherry tree lamp plugged in, and my Ibanez on my bed, quietly calling me to play it again before i go to sleep. I got this weird feeling i can’t really describe but i am very happy tonight.
Goodnight.

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