ok before i continue a small tangent. I have 3 main… masks, i suppose.
the first is my one for being around my parents. i dont swear and try to be the model child. this one is very exhausting to upkeep and is theleast how i want to act.
my second is my one around friends. this is important later. in this one, i swear like a sailor and make stupid jokes. this one shows moreof my personality but is still quite restrained. this one is just okay.
my third is my favourite. i use this on imgflip only. i am almost truly how i want to express my personality.
back to the thing about my groups.
my friends mostly know me by the second mask, and very rarely the first.
these groups i want to join dont fit the second mask too well, but still fit.
these groups would fit with my third mask, however.
the thing is, they dont know me by the third too much.
so im scared. i dont know how i can join these groups if they dont know how i truly am as a person. I'm scared they wont like who i really am, so my second mask drifts further from the third. and i hate that and need advice.