Can I join whatever this is

Never be part of the problem.
Be the entire issue.

But in the end, it doesn't matter what you are or what you do. You may die surrounded by people, you may not; in the end you'll be alone in your grave.

Always will be so.

There's no way of changing the way life starts and ends. You start as a lonely parasite in a woman, you end just as quiet and lonely as before.

Correct.

"...unless you nuke an entire city and unsuccessfully escape..."

always remember, out of the 7 billion sperms, you still got there first.

But isn't that why you suffer so much? If you had never reached the egg, you'd never suffer, you'd never have to see the people you love leave you. You'd be nothing, and that's the only freedom there is in this world.

True.

why so much sadcore

As a world, we are divided by race--- yet united by racism.