I never wish death on people, I wish them different.

Story time...

My older brother used to kick the shit out of me all the time, even for the slightest infractions. Beat him in a video game? Crack! Crack! Crack! N64 controller over the back of my head. Blood starting to run down my shoulder. No reaction, no fighting back, that’s what he was looking for. I just took it like a rock. This went on time and time again.

So, believe me when I say I’ve always been a pacifist, past the point of detriment. Even when I grew and gained 6 inches and 80 pounds on him. Shoulders like a moose. He would stop hitting me, but I never returned any favors. A lot of that anger and rage in me must have transmuted to dark humor. I can joke about mostly anything. Most of my family is dead too, so I’m like 99% numb to the world at this point, living in a cloak of sarcasm.

I used to paint for this guy who only had 9 fingers. He once told me a piece of advice that always stuck with me: “If you get mad, you lose”. In life, in an argument, in general. If someone upsets you, you have lost. You have been manipulated. They are controlling your emotions. In such, I have always guarded my emotions from other people. Nothing anyone says can really affect me. Sometimes I forget that part of myself is not like most people.

I can understand how me joking about Kirk dying can be translated to wanting him dead, but that’s truly not the case. Heck, I stumbled upon a heavily censored video of it and my stomach was a lil woozy most the day. I can joke about death, and rape, and torture, enjoy it in fictional settings like movies and such, but I really detest real-world violence. I don’t even like to watch UFC fights.

So, do I feel bad for Kirk? Not any more than every other needless and insignificant death in this country that are drowned out by the next. Maybe for his kids, even shitty people and parents are heroes in their child’s eyes. I watched both my parents die so I can empathize with them. I don’t even wish death on my brother though, and he’s prolly 5x the prick that Kirk was.

I not going to change my opinion of Kirk just because he is dead though. I’m sorta glad that I never have to worry about him running for president, but his death was certainly not good for the country.

I have plenty of theories about his death, but I didn’t want to get into it here, and I tried to keep it mostly non-political. If you actually read all that I am sorry weed is legal in my state. I'm pretty sure religion is bullshit and this is the only life we get, so try and enjoy it. Cheers.

Countless videos prove that Charlie Kirk was polite and kind and never harassed or vilified anyone. Countless videos. Perhaps if the general political Left would learn to think INDEPENDENTLY of their ideological programming they would cease equating polite debate with hate-rhetoric and cease resorting to general violence and targeted murder.

Never vilified anyone? Riiiiiggghhhhtttt. Just because he speaks in a calm voice and a polite smirk doesnt mean what he says isn't vilifying. His opinions on gay and trans people. "I dont trust black pilots". What he says about Muslims. You live in a fantasy world if you think he's not vilifying anyone.