I actually didnt break up with her, she broke up with me multiple times and then begged for me back every time. I was hit and gaslighted, humiliated, bruised, and even more that I cant even remember by her and she was a huge narcissist but refused to want to get better. I had just lied belly-up for 3 years because if I ever fought back she'd threaten to kill herself and would send me pictures of her blades or knives. Crazy I defended her when goings got down to it but im done now.