I hate being transgender. Every day for the past almost 3 years now I've woken up and gone to school in fear. People at the school I used to go to got attacked for being LGBTQ and Im not sure how I didnt. Still, I get called slurs against my gender and was even as*sul*ed because a friend I had who turned out bad had a thing for trans people. Im constantly misgendered even after trying my best to look masculine, but its never enough. Even after all the panic attacks, breakdowns and having to go to the counselors office so many times I can never feel like im an actual boy. I've gotten so many "shehe"s that I can't even count them. So many "sorry, I always forget stuff"s. I'm so tired. I wish I could just be normal and be happy with what I was given. I could have avoided so many things, so much trauma, if I was just like everybody else. I'm exhausted.