I've held it in for so long bc I was trying to hide it from y'all. I can't trust any of u with my feelings due to my trauma. I don't understand myself or anything. I f**king hate everyone, even those I claim to love. I want to kill everyone, and I don't know why. I'm so tired of hurting people, yet I still have urges to do so. I can't be stable. I can't be happy. I can't be anything I wanna be.