Sorry about doing this kinda randomly

I feel like msmg has changed so much since I first found it after leaving the whole damn site for two years
I came back, immediately got into some shit with an EXCESSIVELY antifur kid that lasted a while and almost got me back off the site again (probably would've been for good) and I only was able to get him off my ass bc DJTO helped with that shit (Idc what yall think about him, he's a f**king amazing user and you can't change my mind)
A little bit after, I started doing more digital art nd decided to post them to Imgflip
From there and following up with the whole thing with that one kid, I somehow came across msmg (pretty sure I saw a Winter Frost post or smth while looking at some pokemon art and shit [I like pokemon, I'm not a freak. Shut up.])
And I decided "eh f**k it why not try it out here"
IMMEDIATELY found out this was way more engaged with a lot more interaction than I was used to, so I decided to stay with msmg.
Yall were lowkey assholes at first with the whole saturning thing and all that shit instead of just helping newgens understand how shit worked here, but after a while it got better (helps that I'm way less corny. Still corny, just not as much.)
Since then yall have really just gotten to be not so bad (Helps when some users got banned or left, and when I stopped being active at night)
It had gotten to a really great point (for msmg, this is still a shithole), with only a few things f**king it up

Then (this is a personal thing) the f**kass Josh kid comes back (found him through a memeplug) and I really realized how much of a *r wordred* asshat he is, and how a lot of the annoying ass users on here at the time were the same way
Kinda helped shit to be easier here again, and that kept going for a while
Then some shit offline happened with me and I decided to take a bit of a break (tried to quit completely bc it felt like an addiction at that point), then I slowly started coming back
msmg was really a lot better by this point with a lot of different users than what I was used to (both from newgens joining and bc I switched over what times I'm on)
But yeah, it really just kept being like that continually until now, with just a few instances along the way of shit going down

And now I can kinda see people acting as though this place can really "heal"
sadly, it never will fully.
Nothing can until humanity as a whole heals.
Not gonna get into it, but a lot of yall really gotta rethink your lives.

Which brings me to this next bit

Yall are WAY too freaky.
ALL the time.
And a lot of the users here are just straight D1 gooners
It lowkey makes me weirded the f**k out and I get that I can't do anything about it so yk what, keep being wierd as shit. Whatever you want ig. Just don't f**k up someone else.
I tried to get away from doing all that shit bc it made me feel f**king disgusting, and I just felt like I was being kind of a bitch about it (I convince myself of stupid shit all the time)
so yeah, still working on that...

but then there's some of yall just existing to make life miserable for some users.
Even if it's not THAT deep and it's just some ragebait, it's annoying as f**k and accomplishes nothing other than making someone feel like shit to some degree, bc that's where anger really stems from.

I've also been using this site WAY too much, and it's lowkey feeling like I'm addicted or smth again
I don't want that
I also don't wanna just leave bc it's still fun, yk?
So what Imma do is give someone my login (not like any of yall are gonna be getting it), and have them change my password to something I don't know for however long I need, and then when I feel like it'd be okay to come back some I'll email to ask for it to be changed back to what it was before.
So yeah, imma try to be WAY less active.
If you wanna know why Imma put a link below this as soon as I have that typed up, bc I know none of yall are trying to read all that shit plus this

But yeah, it's been fun, and it will be in the future, but I don't want my life to be wasted in an intangible place like this full of people who don't really care at all abot whatever I do, when I could be spending it with the people who I know and love

So I'll still be active on an alt in drawings for a while during this whole thing, and it'll take a while to get going, but I'm gonna try to leave. idk why I drew out saying it this much, but yeah.
There's so much other shit that happened before this that I didn't mention bc it doesn't matter and I decided all this as I typed it, so yk

But yeah, I'll still be here and active, but I'm gonna only be on occasionally
it's been great yall
but I gotta fix myself up

sad to see you go bro, i really liked talking to you, you were actually a great user, always made me laugh and smile. Thanks for being here bro

thanks man

alright... I wish you luck! I support you!

calling me out😰

ay good for you man, you're 100% right ab some of the people being weird, its nasty, and terrible for other people

as a former gooner, i respect this decision. please take as long as you need to get better. this site isnt healthy for you. as for returning on an alt, try not to. it might seem hard, but discipline is important. staying here will likely drag you down again. thats my take, do it if you want, but just be careful.

good luck.

Jesus Christ I actually read all of this-

you're absolutely correct my dude

my name is edwin

GG