Dude i'm actually about to f**king cry.
I don't even know what the hell i would do if you were to do that, i know that things going on in your life really sucks but i am telling you right now, DO NOT DO IT. You can believe me or not but when you die it isn't going to be any "floating in a void for eternity" suicide will lead you straight to hell which is unimaginably painful compared to whatever the f**k you are feeling right now, you can really turn your life around right now, things can get better and it just takes patience. I am actually F**KING shaking right now, please rethink what you are doing, i don't want to lose my best friend, this will actually f**k me up more than i already am, please just talk to me.