I need help, please

just apologize, but show that you mean it. It worked for me.
OKAY I ADMIT IT THATS A LIE AND IVE NEVER ACTUALLY BEN ABLE TO WORK UP THE COURAGE TO APOLOGIZE TO MY FRIENDS BECAUSE IM WORRIED ABOUT WETHER THEYLL FORGIVE ME OR NOT

But really though, do your best.

how is him being trans relevant to this?

because i made a rather distatsful joke about it after they made fun of me for not liking something

Oh so it isn't only the bee thing? What else happened?

basically I don't them I don't like cinnamon and they were like why? and how?? because they liked it and I was trying to explain that I just didn'tt like the taste the smell was fine but then they made a joke like "look (my name) the only reason you don't like cinnamon is because of all those cinnamon challenge videos so just ignore it and like cinnamon" and then I said "ok well the only reason you don't want to be a girl is because you have gender dysphoria" not the best come back I know

Dang. First of all, euphoria is also a thing, but like tbh, I myself wouldn't get angry over that, but I understand it.

yeah

lmao thats a low blow but still, they shouldn’t overreact,,

Just let them be, give them some time, I think it'll be okay
But TBH I have no clue

I also made them mad yesterday because I picked up a bee I knew was definitely left for dead, on the sidewalk and inspected it for a few seconds, determined that this was totally a male bee that was definitely kicked out and was literally going to die no matter what I did with it and tossed it into a bush. but they were angry because i didn't place it on a flower because "bees love flowers" in my head I was like "bees don't care about the flowers, they want to eat the nectar and the pollen, and this bitch is going to die anyways it doesn't care about going to a flower before it's dead" honestly I was so confused about why they were so freaking angry about it and then I had to remember for a second oh right to not everyone thinks like me and I can't think that everyone thinks like me so i have to consider this person's feelings in which I did but they still slapped my arm and then agreed with me when i started rambling things that I usually say to my parents when I'm apologizing which is stuff like "i'm sorry i was wrong, i'm always wrong, you know better than me anyway" and they were like yeah that's why you should just listen to me next time

So now they're probably double mad at me

I mean I did think to myself about how they're making me feel bad as a person and maybe I should just stop being friends with them cuz this is kind of bad behavior, but their probably the only friend i have that i talk to on a day to day basis. and while I don't really mind going back to just being alone all the time it would still be kind of sad

well that's insane and if they're gonna get so angry like that at the littlest things they probably shouldn't be your friend
I totally agree with you on this bee thing, and I'm so so so sorry you have to go through that

Who gaf they gon get over it

Yes I'm sorry I bothered you with my problems

No bru it’s fine just they sound like an asshole ngl

they kinda are but I mostly excuse it mainly because I don't have many more options for friends and they were apparently home schooled for part of their life which is what I mostly hold their strange behavior by

Say sorry??? Like what???

I did, they said it was making it worse

and then I spent the rest of the day thinking about how my family and friends would be so much better off without me if I just ran off or died, because then I couldn't make them sad anymore. And then thought about how selfish I was for thinking that because I was just thinking about me and no one else, it doesn't matter how much I think I suck because that's just selfish to think that

NOOOOOOOO

You WILL make them sad or worried if you were to run away or try to "ride the sui-slide," unless if you have fake friends and bad parents (which I assume and hope you don't have).

my steparent is a raging narcissist they probably say something along the lines of "you guys shouldn't feel sad about her death because she was just being selfish and should have meditated more" and my mom's favorite kid is my little brother, who she has way higher hopes for because he's thinking of serving in the navy to go to college for free, and I don't usually follow though on telling her about collage stuff because I keep forgetting

That's sad...

legit my step parent once said "I wish they would just kill all the homeless people in Francisco" because they think every single one of them is a drug addict

Now that's just wrong.
That's not even close to true, and even if it were to have been, it's not like they had much of a choice…

i know bro is just crazy

Is your mom on of those types of people that would go "iF yOuR HoMeLeSs, ThEn JuSt bUy a hOuSe" ?

like the last time i asked her to help me with my math homework when I was in like 6 or 7th grade, she got so fed up with me because I kept forgetting what she just told me and everytime I looked at the problem I just couldn't remember what to do next and she slapped my face because I told her I forgot

no that's my stepdad, my mom is the kinda person who is chill mostly unless you make her angry by doing something

Say that you're sorry and that it won't happen again.

already did

apologize in a serious manner

I did

they have now most gotten over it

ok nice :)

keep going

where?

this friend sounds dramatic asf and like an egomaniac ngl, just beat the shit out of them

i would get in trouble then

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