I would say i appreciate the good things in life.
IDK, heres my rant from the discord vent stream:
I dont even know who i am anymore. Everyone i love, everyone i care for, has been treating me like some kind of assh0le or stranger. I dont even recognize myself anymore, and nor do I. Im not sure which kind of pain i even want to indure: take compliments and then hurt when random people hurt me, or keep building this shell that protects me from their hurt. The shell might be killing me slowly or it might be keeping me safe. I dont know if i just want to give up.