...while conjugal visits are going on in the same room.

You're giving them too much credit.

that has indeed been one of my persistent flaws in life.

Conjugal visits with pictures of Trump. Some guy posted on facebook a video of how much he loves trump, complete with a song saying something like "I want to lie in your arms all night". For a group that professes how anti-gay they are, it seems very contradictory -- and VERY revealing.

the mind can be a very fragile place, and i expect that willful long-term delusion must lead to other states.