I am here to inform you that I only approved this because this is just barely acceptable to the stream rules but that does not change that this is completely and utterly disgusting and I wish for forks to stab my eyes with immediately. my disappointment is immeasurable, my day is ruined, and much more. if you need to seek professional help, please call a therapist to hire but I am not sure that that will help at this point. try a mental asylum if you cannot get help from a therapist and if all else fails you should lock yourself inside your house, do not learn lock-picking, destroy any way for social interactions and suffocate from your own insanity.