I kinda want to run away, i get emotionally abused, my family treats me like shit, my aunt will call me an asshole and then my family will start laughing at me and make fun of me, if i try to say something back i then get treated like i just killed somebody. The dumbass kids in my neighborhood hate me because they rode their bikes in front of our car and just stopped there not letting us pass on our way to church, so i chased after them with a branch and nearly beat the shit out of them, msmg kinda hates me over stupid shit i post without thinking, my mind is so f**ked up from the things i have seen online, porn, dead bodies, a completely mashed up human head, i post dirty shit without thinking because i sometimes just assume that people have seen the same shit i have, sometimes i want to live, sometimes i want to die, i really f**king hate myself so much, everything i do f**ks everything up, i almost caught my f**king house on fire while fixing a computer, i accidently broke an expensice bracelet that my grandma gave to my sister. (She does not know i broke it) as i am typing this i right now feel like going to my bed and never wake up ever again, i take forever to wake up because i can never find a reason to, my life really sucks ass right now.