my mental state is not at it's best, but I'm okay, can yall plz be nice and tell me what to do?

Its ok bro. It takes time to heal and cope. You did nothing wrong and i bet ur grampa loved u. Talk with ur family. I hope u feel better be with people close to you. I know. ✌️

Read my other comments

I see. Remember people care bro. I dont even know u and i care. Takes a little time. 🤘

I'll try my best

Yes u will. 😊

Thanks

Thank u too for talking 😎

You're welcome

what

My grandpa died
I tried to reset character

how would you want us to help

Any advices to keep going?

hm
yknow i myself right now am having zero motivation to do anything as well
but i will try my best to give reasons to keep going
I would advise to try and get bored
Getting bored puts your mind to work and when you get bored you just wanna do something, so whenever you get bored
do something youve never done before
try an instrument
draw
anything of the sort and just f**k around with it, regardless if it's good or bad. it helps in my case sometimes but i'm not sure though.
and assuming you're still young as the rest of us, you've got a lot more time ahead of you
and yes you're having a really bad time
that's a part of life unfortunately as it is not fair, which is why you, out of spite, gotta keep goin
because you feel like you're at the bottom so then from there you can only go up
i would try and talk to more people when you get the chance
and if time seems to be flying too fast, i recommend to stop looking forward to the next weekend or the next month or something, and just worry about today
tomorrow is something about tomorrow, not today.
appreciate all the small things, helps time go a bit slower and enrichens life, i can tell you this from doing this myself

Thank u soo much for the time u spent writing allat, but I was actually doing that, I did draw, play piano and guitar, go outside, but just when I do that my memory and guilt won't let me go, I'm feeling guilty that my grandpa called me to stay with him before his death, I didn't spend time with him unfortunately, and after seeing his death, my guilt was soo much that I didn't realize that I was grabbing the knife and almost stabbed myself, lucky me not too much blood came, also about ur boredom idea, that would also fail sadly bcs doing nothing will drive me into more guilt

well first you wanna have to forgive yourself.
us humans will never be perfect and we all do something we will regret later on.
but lingering on that guilt for too long will start to rot you from the inside if you keep beating yourself up for it. you gotta forgive yourself and move on
ofc it's normal to grieve but it's not okay to not move on from the past
try and spend time with everyone you know for a longer time, so that you wont feel this kind of guilt in the future, and you'll be happy that you were a part of their lives.
your grandfather's death is not your fault, we all have our last days coming eventually.
the more you try to spend time with your family and friends the guilt will more than likely lessen over time and you'll feel better.
give it some time, things will look up eventually

That's the problem, my family is just spending time grieving ba (i call grandpa ba) more than they spend it with me, that makes me feel forgotten and feel like I'm the problem they're avoiding, only my sister is talking to me and actually making me feel better, but my sister won't be always with me, I will be alone in my town studying, my whole family will be in another

i see.
well this opens up the opportunity to meet new people and get to talk to them!
it's kinda scary but thats the main issue
just say f**k it and go say hi to them and go from there :3

Belive me
If u were me, u would prefer to lock urself in ur home and nwver get out
90% Of the Ppl in my town r straight up aggressive and may be hostile, I once tried doing so in school and got punched just for trying to talk to someone
And if u want to say "what about the other 10%?"
Well...they're on the other side of the town

been feeling like wanting to be a hikikomori myself too. my only friends irl are starting to kinda slowly leave me and im feeling alone again.
but hey once you become an adult, have a job or smth you can always move somewhere else im sure.
and if anything, i'll be your friend if you wanna
i'll try to be active a little more while trying to balance both my part time jobs but know that someone out there wants the best for ya

Thank u

ofc :3

something to worry about tomorrow* mb

same
2025 is horrible

Sorry to hear that

same for me so far
and 2024 was a complete s**tshow

maybe get therapy, it may help with venting or learning how to handle everything

I did but didn't work out very well...

oh dear
do you have anyone you can be open to?

Sadly no

I'm not the best one with advice but a step towards the right direction is to find some way to grief over your grandpa's death instead of doing all of this

I tried all the ways, but this shit is soo hard to ignore

Well don't give up on the ways you know
Try to find some other ways before deciding this
If nothing else helps, tell your parents or someone close to you

My parents failed at this, even the therapist, I am trying my hardest to resist this but it's just guilt driving me to insecurity

Don't be guilty for your grandpa's death though
I mean it's fine that you feel that way, but don't feel like it's your fault that this is happening

Read my other comment I did to Noelle-Holiday

The fact that even the therapist failed is concerning

Ikr?

even if you are not a christian i will pray that things get better for you. god loves you and will be there for you

I'm Muslim, but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate ur prayer, thank u soo much may Allah bless u for that 🙏

Im also muslim

Salam alikom

Malalikom Asalam

معليكم السلام

و not م

و

وعليكم السلام

كيفك

على ما يرام شكراً

دارابي دانكميم لا يحبنا ):

Yo bro dont suicide, or kys.

Thank god I didn't, almost did but didn't

Dont suicide i will suicide.

DON'T

And actually don't

I just did

Then how r u writing?

Im at heaven bro i kms with my phone.

Ahem, killing urself would take u to hell according to Quran

I mean someone shot me while i was walking

I know, QURAN IS EVERYTHING

Thank god u know that

Wait i need to go to the bathroom.