I hear what you say. Well, you have to do you. You are your own man and do the best yiu can, for you. You do seem to get pretty wasted. Hopefully, you're careful and don't drive. Just be careful. Not preaching. I truly do care, and wouldn't want you to get hurt. You have to think about yourself, what you want, your family, your gf, and you recently gotvyour promotion. Do toss it away and do irreversible harm tou yourself, you know?
Love you and be safe cowboy 🤍