I just have to vent real quick. The thing is, most of the time I'm NOT happy. And I've been masking it ever since i was 7. That's already half my lifetime. I just learned how to emulate the behavior of happiness. I've already been at my breaking point for years now. I'm already down to my last strands of molecules. It's hard dealing with all this pressure. With school and everything. I won't be leaving but i'm just coming clean about this.