Look, in the end, it's your decision, but you likely heard all of this already. Family and friends who care about you etc. You know, I've been there. Wanting to end it. Yesterday even. But in those situations, it's very, very hard to see what you are. You are a gigantic chord of electron vibrations, trillions of notes played in harmony to form... You. All this, all that time you spent growing up, developing this chord, this magnificent piece of particle physics, and now you want to end it just because some parts of it are going off the rails?