I will never end up a "him"... behind my back I already am

Oh my goodness the fall out boy pun XD

You like FOB?
Fav album? Mine is Folie A deux, for its beautiful display of the vocalists and lyricism, its fantastic use of instruments and its beautiful lyrics and instrumentals, as well as the classic emo themes of superficiality coming out in unique ways. Case in point, 20 Dollar Nose Bleed and (Coffee's For Closers). It reminds you in themes that the human mind is very nuanced and every corner could be different. It's unpredictable to the untrained observer.

Yesss

LETS GOO

same bro same

Working out my chest and hips for the purpose of looking a Lil more in between
Cya soon

It would help if my dumbass f**king 9yo sister would quit trying to steal mybshaving cream and play with it in the sink, she emptied a whole nearly full can in an hour and I want to commit a felony

Title's a reference to the song I have stuck in my head (if you don't know how tf did you miss my last post)

yeah, f**k testosterone. Body hair is the worst for both my dysphoria and my autism

thing is my f**king sister tries to play with it in the sink. went through a large can in a few hours being home alone. She's f**king nine and I have had moments where I legitimately want to commit a felony. I don't and don't see myself ever doing it but I would love if she were someone else's sibling.

I'm an only child, so I don't know much about that, but I've heard kiddos tend to do those kinds of things, but look on the bright side, when she's older if your parents aren't really supportive, your sis could be the affirming family you need. I kind of hate being an only child bc of that, everyone in my house hates the fact I'm not the mask I put on when I was 12.

My mom's half affirming
But having a sister who 1. Blames everything on me even when I don't speak (I smiled out the windshield, she hit me and my oldest brother said "don't do that". She yelled that I'm trying to get her in trouble. True story.) 2. Steals my things 3. Openly insults me and comes at me with improvised weapons of sticks and books who is affirming kind of isn't effective

Older or younger? if she's older, jesus, what a shitty person, if she's younger, jesus what an annoying brat, hope they grow out of it.

9. I am thirteen.

oh, I didn't know it was the same one. Jfc you're young LMFAO. You're like in...eighth grade?

Ninth.

Jeez. Like Ik I'm basically a geriatric on this site. Like in 3 months I'm 17. Next school year I can vote. I'm kind of having a crisis over that rn,

Look around you. If I feel similarly I might instead choose to observe how everything is perfect in nature. Everything is as it should be. How it is.
The vibrance and detail of life. How rough my hands are, how my cuts on my arm are faded or how my hair falls over my face.
How peaceful a tree is.

dude, I've tried that. The only way is to not feel, to accept it as a fact of life, because if I don't, the hatred and sorrow rot me from the inside.

I can relate, a coin with two different sides
I can relate and I apologize that you feel that way.

nah, dw at all. When you're old like me, you just accept you're broken or pathetic as an objective fact. It can't be changed, you can't do anything about it, so why bother feeling about it at all. it may also have something to do with my absurdist approach to life or my aspergers, but still.

Wow
You're a full adult
I thought I wouldn't see another other than Gummy and Bethany

Nah, I'm still absolutely a child and that's the problem. The only development I've had since I was like your age has been that I've switched teams from neonazi terf to trans anarchosocialist and I've become more social. Deep down, I'm still the broken, emotionally stunted meld of two awful people. But I gotta act mature bc I'm old.