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Paranoia

Why do you it even is Paranoia? Why would you think im Paranoid?

Its kinda obvious

Tell me how please.

:I

I just want to know.

You’re a user here I remember a lot, if you feel unmotivated perhaps try taking a break for a while or try making something new.

Making something new is difficult when i do not have the motivation and ideas to do so.

You may gain new ideas if you take a break for a while, I tend to get a lot of my ideas when I’m bored

I did have a idea however. The Crooked Man. However, that requires some more people for his gimmick to actually work.

You know, how I got good (or at least okay) at art was just drawing characters off of reference images, trying to get every detail right. Then I moved on to my own shit and drew and drew and drew. Keep drawing. Think about what you don’t like and how to maybe fix it. Practice, fix, practice. Drawing is a form of art that, like every other, takes a while to get good at.

But my drawing is so damn difficult on a computer.

Pearlfan says its Paranoia because you feel paranoid that if you don't match whoever is the most relevant at the time you will disappear.

I guess that's one of the things...

Also I know how you feel. I definitely have fallen into obscurity.

You see guys, I've been feeling like I'm not doing good enough. Its been pretty much gnawing at me for a while, and i just feel like no matter what i do, there's always someone that's just gonna outshine me. I also just think i keep wasting my damn time on my wasted poetry and drawings. I can list down many people who are better artists then me. Hell, people drew my characters BETTER then me. All i ever want is to just at least try to keep up with everything and try to do my plans, but i feel like I'm starting to lose motivation for many basic things i need to do. I want to work hard to try and at least try to leave some impression, but I'm just losing some hope in trying. I think I'm slowly just gonna disappear into obscurity by the time 2025 comes around. I just do not know what to do anymore.

… do something! Make people get off your back.
You might not wanna trust me because, well. I’m myself

But just how?

Well, you see. I’m classified as a suspicious character, no one can really trust me, but just good enough to be, “eh your fine with me”.

Does it really matter that anyone is better than you?

This stream isn't about proving who's the best, it's about having fun. So what if you think others can do better than you.

I want to just try to help the stream and try to leave a impression, but i just feel like i cannot do much.

Maybe you just need a break

A break? Why a break?

Burnout.

Sometimes putting a ton of effort into something gets tiring, a break can help

All i really want is just more people to just at least recognize what I'm doing. But i think that could never happen. Its making me lose motivation.

Hmm

So what do i do?

Let me put it this way

Most of the time when I post a Gundam model, it doesn't get much acknowledgement.

However, I keep posting them.

Why?

Because it makes me happy.

If you wanna keep posting here, go ahead and do it if that's what you enjoy doing.

Im pretty much one of the few who actually comments on your posts however. I at least make you feel not ignored.

And I'm thankful for that

But my point still stands. Not everyone cares about the things I like, but I still post it because I enjoy it.

I just post because i just feel noticed. I just wanna feel like I'm actually contributing to something.

For that I don't know what to tell you.

I'd help if I knew how

Gundam are sick ASF btw

:)

How long of a break should i even take?

Whatever feels right

A few days, maybe a week

Whatever works for you

You see, i just try my best to try and stay relevant. All i want is just at least some recognition from others. Its the most i just want. To just feel like im actually here and not just wasting time.

Idk maybe a break could help you get some motivation back

Im scared tho that i might just fade out of relevancy.

With how often you post I doubt that'll happen