Oh no, some of the numbers went missing. You can still ask me the other numbers though. (Chaws note: I ate the numbers)

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71%

Better than most *cough* Sylvia *Cough*

why are you calling me out

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15. The last song I heard was Carry on Wayward Son by Kansas

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Yes

Cool

I ate the missing questions
Anyways, 15 and 19

How did the numbers taste btw? Lol XD

15. The last song I heard was Carry on Wayward Son by Kansas

19. I hate unlicensed therapists who aren’t certified but take clients anyway, religion-based therapists, and experiential therapy techniques. Therapy is meant to help, and it does for many many many people, but a likely small minority of therapists are pretty harmful to the people they treat and they can make the patients’ problems worse or help create new problems.

When I was a young teen, my first therapist was still going to college to get certified. Idk if she was even qualified to take clients, but she did. She was a Christian-based therapist, and I guess cheaper than a lot of other options, which is why my parents chose her for me. Most of what I wanted to talk about or needed help with was off-limits because “god wouldn't like that” or “god wouldn’t want me to talk about that”. I also had to go through anger management treatment because I had to learn how to get along better with people for society and for my future. The people I wasn't getting along with were my bullies in school and my family who weren't treating me well. I used to stand up for myself back then much more often, but that's not traditional good “girl” behavior.

So, I learned how to see things from many points of view, talk things out, and accept things I probably shouldn't. It made me much more insightful about why people do the things they do, but I feel like it’s made it harder for me to actually stand up for myself against horrible treatment from others. Besides, not everyone wants to “talk things out” or gives a shit about how their treatment towards you is making you feel. It’s also insane how much more is expected from someone who allegedly has anger problems than is expected from the hypothetical normal/healthy people. Why is someone with issues being held to a higher standard of behavior than what is expected from those in general society? Idk, but it added to my frustration.

I brought up the experience to a therapist I had many years later as an adult, and she agreed that the first therapist likely made at least a few of my problems much worse. I wasn't getting the help I needed, I was being silenced and left to deal with very complex things on my own, and she gave me additional trauma to deal with.

so not this place's pseudo therapist?

No, Chaws and Jay/Jaiden helping people is fine. They aren't diagnosing people with mental health issues, charging money, deliberately ignoring people’s problems because of fcked up reasons, or conditioning people to accept bad treatment from others. What Chaws and Jay/Jaiden do is listen to people’s problems and offer up support or advice. It’s 2 different things.

I mean if people really wanted to pay me...

Don’t take payment for it Chaws. That's when it’d become an illegal activity. Lol.

Lawful is just awful with an L

Only illegal if you get caught ;)

supose so...

all

All of them?!?!! O.o
….. Lol, f*ck it! Challenge accepted.

Height: I’m 5 foot 4.

Crush: I don't really currently have any crushes on people I’m not already dating. Lately, I’ve been watching the tv show Gotham, and occasionally, I have a random thought that Penguin is actually kinda cute. In other scenes, I don't really think so. *shrugs* That's as close to a crush as I have going on right now I guess and that's not really a crush. Unless my interest in the Joker counts as a crush? That's definitely a heck of a lot stronger. It probably could qualify…

Wish: To be better off financially with money that was obtained legally. It’d be one less thing to stress over. Maybe that sounds selfish though cus I could wish for the end of war. Or I could wish for peace, or lgbtq acceptance globally… When I was better off financially in the past, I used to donate to charity. I also replaced my parents' broken appliances, paid off my friends' medical bills, gave money to struggling friends so they could buy groceries and the medicine they needed, and helped pay for a surgery a friend needed. If I had that kind of money again, I’d go back to helping other people in addition to myself. And I have some business ideas too which can create more jobs for others.

Eye color: Brown

Hair color: dyed green and purple.

Text: The last text I sent was to my dad. He ordered a new freezer because his broke. I’m better with technology and I don’t have a traditional job (aka I have more time to deal with it), so I’m helping him out. The text told him that his freezer is coming tomorrow. He was expecting a morning delivery today, so it won’t be good news when he sees the text.

Boy bff: On imgflip, my best friend is Chaws. My best irl guy friend is named Kyle.

Girl bff: One of my cousins or my dog Shelby.

Miss anyone: When I don't see my boyfriends or my dog for a while I miss them. When I’m not on imgflip, there are some people I miss talking to or seeing what they are up to. I also miss a few of my pets that have passed away. I miss my cat Dodie who I had when I was 5 or 6 years old until I was 18. I miss my goldfish and how excited they seemed to be to see me. It really cheered me up. And I miss my hamster, Eddie. He lived to be 3 or 4 which is pretty old for hamsters. I named him after Ed Wood who is one of my heroes.

Relationship status: Dating 3 guys. One of them is long distance so we mainly text and call each other.

Favorite song: I don't know if I have one.

Ghosts: yes I believe in ghosts

The last song I heard: My Way by Sex Pistols/Sid Vicious. It played in an episode of Gotham. Fun fact, Johnny Rotten, or John Lydon as he's known now, is at least very very very micro mildly aware of who I am. He's good buds with Rob from The Ghost Finders and apparently, Rob talked to John about me when I was going to potentially make merch for the show and be in at least a few episodes. I was also told by Rob that maybe I could even meet John. I backed out of that deal though cus one of the cast members of The Ghost Finders made me feel uncomfortable. RIP my chances of meeting Johnny Rotten ig. I have a lot of respect for John, and the Sex Pistols is a favorite of one of my boyfriends, so it would have been cool to meet him ngl.

Jealous of: People who have families that accept them.

Battery: it's at 32%

Something I hate: I hate people who bully homeless people.

Sports: It’s been a long time since I played any sports. I used to be pretty good at volleyball and softball.

Last person I chatted with: If the text to my dad updating him about the freezer he ordered counts, then my dad. If it has to be someone who responded to a message I sent, then the last person I talked with is my long-distance boyfriend who I texted with last night.

Favorite color: green or purple. I like both of them a lot.

Sorry the delay. I was getting bullied again for a situation involving my childhood church. For more info, I can send you a link to that post upon request.

Ex names: there's two ways to read this. It could be asking for a dead name (which I don't have) or a name of someone I dated. One of my ex’s is named Dusty. He owned a low budget indie movie company. He was also a director, producer, actor, script writer, and editor for the company. He “discovered” me on Facebook and sent a message asking if I ever thought about being in movies. It was a legit offer. I showed up on the day of the shoot and he liked me so much he extended my role in that movie. Then I became a regular in his films I acted, was a script supervisor, helped with the special effects makeup, was a production assistant and an animal wrangler. I am very thankful for Dusty because he got me started in acting in movies & commercials and well as alt/indie modeling. From spending so much time with him both on set and off, I developed feeling for him. The feeling was mutual so we started dating. Despite our 18 year age gap (which was the reason the relationship ended) it was one of the healthiest and best relationships I’ve been in. He's author now.

Shoe size: I have big feet. I’m a size 8 and a half womens to size 9.

Real name: Bethany.

Addiction: I drink too much and am on the internet too much.

Nickname: Beth or Bethy

Biggest fear: Pregnancy. I don't have an issue with other people being pregnant, but the idea of being pregnant and giving birth scares me.

A secret: I used to have a fan/internet friend who was part of the hacktivist organization Anonymous. I never knew his real name. He used fake names to make social media accounts, had a code name that I could refer to him as, and would give me a passphrase every time he made a new account so I would know it was him. And every few months, he would have a new account. He originally added me because he liked some of the projects I’ve been in. After telling me that, he asked me what I thought of the group Anonymous. I forget what I said exactly, but I basically said that I respect people who want to use anonymity online despite me very much choosing not to do so and that I understood the usefulness & sometimes need for doing so. I also said that I was against corrupt people/organizations, was pro the free sharing of information, and that I had nothing against the group Anonymous.

We became friends, and he offered to help me if I would ever need it. I took him up on that offer a few times, asking for small things like getting hacked social media accounts back for myself and a friend of mine. Lol. It was an interesting friendship. I respected his wish for anonymity, so I barely knew anything about him. We basically talked about my projects, asked each other how the other’s day was, talked about stuff we liked, and I got the smallest bit of insight into Anonymous which I will obviously keep to myself out of respect for my friend.

YIPPIEEEEE

It took a while but there's all of them answered. Lol :)

interesting

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I drink and am on the internet more than I should.

It’s been a long time since I played any sports. I used to be pretty good at volleyball and softball.

My natural hair color is dark brown. I dye it green and purple (after lightening it with bleach). It's been other colors in the past, but green and purple is my signature look.

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Green or purple. I like both of those colors a lot.

fair. i like the dark cool colors. blue, purple, uhhhhh-i-cant-tell-if-this-is-blue-or-purple

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It’s not a complete secret, but its not something I typically talk about or something that that many people know about. I used to be in a cult for a few years and dated the leader of it. From personal experience, it’s not something I’d recommend to others.