ok then tell me directly why the reason I threw our friendship out was because of your bipolar outbursts? because of your lack of willing to help yourself? because of your bulkshit excuses? because of you treating me like a f**king ragdoll you can take everything out on? because of you treating MY REAL LIFE FRIEND as one too? because you can't learn to control your f**king emotions? because you can't muster up the courage to at least, AT F**KING LEAST TRY TO TALK TO SOMEONE OTHER THAN PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET?? because MAYBE IF YOU ACTUALLY TRIED, NONE IF THIS SHIT WOULDVE HAPPENED????? Why did I go back the first time. I was such a fool giving you another chance, and the second I did, you ficking threw it away like a garbage bag on a windy day. you didn't even care about anyone else's feelings during the whole thing. you just f**king flew off and yelled at me because of YOUR problems. and yet you refuse help because of your f**kass excuses, not doing any further research to confirm your suspicions. I tried helping you but now that I've seen your true colors, you can't even help yourself. I shouldn't have given you another chance.