Which I guess may be true, though I doubt it's a sole purpose

Philophobia?

Perhaps

You make that sound like it’s a problem

It’ll save you hundreds of thousands of dollars

True
I mean it's a problem to the extent of missing out on allegedly the "nicest feeling" part of life, according to many.
I wouldn't see it as a problem if it was strictly romantic, but I don't even love my family. I couldn't raise a kid well because I wouldn't be able to love them for example

Then don’t have kids. It’s a horrible world to bring a kid into at this point in time anyway. I wouldn’t want to be a kid in 2024.

But that’s good. Now it’s not a matter of “don’t worry the right person will come along” (that right person doesn’t exist). But not loving your family is something to definitely fix about yourself. It’s a different kind of love.

Whoever told you love is the nicest feeling in life has probably never had the peace of mind that comes with having no financial stress. Love isn’t a feeling at all.

True, having kids was a bad example anyways, i dont want to in the first place.

Right, its that im most worried about.

Interesting. Well I have a while yet to have to deal with financial stress, but its one of the main reasons im not looking forward to being an adult whatsoever.

Of course that's also expensive and not for everybody, but still

Hm
Could certainly be a factor

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I wouldn't mind filling your time <3

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"Brother" became "bro"
"Fake" became "cap"
"Talking" became "yapping"
But can "you" become "mine"?

/hj?

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I almost feel like love is this illogical thing, and experiencing it would be throwing away a piece of me

Not everything in human life must be based on logic alone

True
But still

Love is a choice
Love is a choice only those smart enough to tune into their brain rather than heart should consider
Many people make the choice
But it's true - it's not for everyone

For me, it's a state of being rather than a feeling.
I could live life without it, but having known it I'd feel slightly emptier than I do already.
It's almost ethereal in the right situations, but in the wrong ones the downsides are horrendous.

I see
It's exactly that line of thinking that makes me feel stupid too
The inability to even make that choice, had i even a chance to.

And thats precisely it, im conflicted. My entire philosophy and way of life is based around living fully, and i cant exactly f**king do that if i feel at all empty. On the contrary its nice being more or less mentally invincible to some of life's tragedies, I know people would kill to be in my situation.

I just don't know, I hate not knowing, and knowing theres a problem i haven't and don't seem close to solving for so incredibly wrong makes me feel like im missing something obvious to literally everybody else, im just too ignorant to see it.

Self discovery is a thing that in practice can take a long time

It's not about knowing all the answers
It's about getting to the answers the right way

Still
An inability to even really begin to find answers is unsettling

Have you ever considered journaling what happens in your life?

It may be a good place to start in order to notice patterns

I've tried, but I just hate subjecting myself to that much of a routine
It's yet another responsibility to keep track of, and its always proved more trouble than its worth

Try keeping a small notepad and pen on hand, and writing down how you're feeling and what made you feel that way when you're distressed or uncomfortable.

You don't have to have a specific time in your day, and it doesn't have to be long
Even a sentence or two is sufficient

Just to eventually look back and notice patterns

That's exactly what i've tried and i beyond detest it

Why is it exactly you dislike it so much?
What about it really bothers you?

It just feels like even more shit im forced to do. Its just so incredibly obnoxious to keep track of, even without dates, times, etc.

And I hate pulling the "haha neurodivergent" card for fear of it sounding like an excuse, but ADHD doesn't exactly help when it comes to that kind of routine and organization.

What is it exactly that stresses you out about tasks?

Mostly the pressing feeling and stress of managing everything. Having to second guess over and over again how much you're missing if anything at all, and having to set aside extra time to look out for things youre meant to do that are easily missed

Perhaps try writing yourself a schedule so that you know exactly what time to get specific things done, and scheduling breaks in between the tasks that bring you the most stress

So that you don't miss anything

Way ahead of you, and its even worse

Managing breaks too becomes the thing i stress about and it ends up being less of a break in the first place

Then maybe don't do breaks and just give yourself that amount of free time at the end of the day

And spend that time on things you enjoy doing, so that it doesn't feel obligatory yet unstructured

Perhaps
Idk, i just tend to be unable to stand it at all

I could fill your free time <3
/hj

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Those lips of yours look soft as clouds and sweet as cotton candy, may I have a taste?

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Those eyes are like a video of pets, something I could focus on for hours on end

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