You're probably thinking of the pesticide issue, but I never mentioned this one. Let's just call this one "Operation Psycho", which I'll explain later.
Back on the semi-original topic, I can't really explain much, but I feel guilty enough simply reading other people's issues, and I don't really talk much about myself to anyone nor feel comfortable with it when it's with family, and when I do, usually the only person I actually talk to simply says "same" and continues acting happy as ever even though she claims to be "depressed" and never mentions nor hints at any issues of her own, so by instinct my mind tricks me into believing that I won't be comforted and will only bring people a few extra burdens, thus I don't really talk about anything. Talking just doesn't clear my mind as it does for most folks. I get that you and Silver are always open for vents, but.. I just don't know.