im left out of quite a lot myself. historically this fact disheartened me but now i see i dont need a friend to have fun, and nobody around me displays their self awareness or their true self. my best friend scares me because they are mentally destroyed yet dont display it anymore. i ask that they do, but it's habitual due to their trauma. they certainly aren't left out but they keep to themself. and it confuses me and makes me feel doubly left out.