Sounds like you're in a negative space. If you ever want out of negative spaces you have to replace the negative with positive. Find something you are grateful for and focus on that then you'll start to see there are just as many good things as there are bad things. Right now, everyone is being bombarded with negative. Ignore it. Turn it off. It's all just a game to try and control you with fear. Do. Not. Let. Them. Win. Good luck to you. You deserve the best life has to offer.