panic attacks are weird
theyre different for everyone. for me they come in short bursts that make me drop what im doing, tear up, get embarrassed and ask to use the bathroom, then getting some water at the fountain and sitting in a stall sobbing at what a pitiful social failure i am to be so narcissistic and optimistic when everything is falling to pieces and how i can so blatantly leech off of my friends and how i should go home and spill my stomach out so the chickens in my backyard can feast off of me
i come off as a very happy person but im a much different interdimensional cosmic horror during the summer than the winter