Why do you have to twist Jesus's love for John? John laid his head on Jesus's chest, because he loves Jesus and will miss Him when He dies. It's a pure love between a child and their father.
During The Last Supper, "The Apostle John, Whom Jesus Loved," Laid His Head On The Nazarene's Bosom. Now Ask Yourself This Question:
Do You Know Any Women, Even Lesbian Women,
Who Lay Their Heads On The Hostess' Bosom During Dinner?