wrong
you can make someone feel worse

Misery loves company...actually crying releases oxytocin and endorphins, so it really does make you feel better. At least for awhile. And it's free!

see, it doesn't work like that for me
i need to bring everyone else down with me before i feel better

It's good to want to know that people care about you, so if that's the motivation then no big deal. But if you simply enjoy making others suffer, that's much more of a problem.

tragic.
anyways

At least you recognize this about yourself. And tearing people down isn't without merit. You could have a bright future as a drill sergeant. If you don't care about putting a constructive spin on it, management can be a wonderful career for sadists.

If you want to change that's another story. If not I say lean into it. You can only play the hand you're dealt, so you may as well make the most of it.