(Mod note: You're not alone)

As with any trauma, it isn't about getting back to the way things were before the event--it's about adapting to the new situation. If only there was an easier way to develop the emotional calluses necessary to function in this world.

How i can forget a person with who i spend five months of my life that easy? I loved this person with all my heart and i still love this person. But unluckily my insecurity and my fears ruined everything

That's just it: you can't forget. People have tried. It doesn't work. The memories are part of who you are now.

I love this person...