Lemme tap the sign here, the reason anything has value is because it's limited, if you die all you will have is the afterlife, if the afterlife even exists or is possibly worse, there could be nothing out there for you but eternal torture for all we know.
What i'm saying is if you throw away your one shot at life you WILL regret it no matter what is on the other side, there won't be any peace in death, only worse suffering, and all we have is our limited life to be free and do what we want with it before we have nothing left to do, so be grateful for it, you are not underserving or you would have life in the first place.