IF YOU NEED HELP JUST TELL ME.

. . .

dont you dare

i do, but too much....
i don't want to do this anymore..

Same…
But we can pull through.
We're friends, right? I may be hundreds of kilometres away from you, but we can get through the bad times.

i'm about to f**king delete...

Do not.
You are the last person I trust left.
I dont want to be alone again.

...

I have a few friends irl, but I dont think any of them are healthy friendships. Dont leave us. I don't even know what you look like, and I already trust you more than most.

i have no irl friends.
y'all are all i have.
and you keep leaving and committing and...
i just want to join them.

So do I.
But I do trust people like you, chaws and jay, even if they dont know i exist.

Join them where? There is nothing after death. Joining them in death has no point. Better to suffer.

being in the nothingness with the others is better than suffering alone without anyone irl to help you..

No…
You see, suffering isnt infinite. Death is. You get one shot at life. No retrys. Death is like taking anaesthesia and never waking up. Because you dont know you are dead. You have no consciousness. You are just… gone.

my whole life is filled with this "suffering".

Then…
I don't know.
If most of life is bad, stay for the little good bits.
Because in the end, nothing matters. So drag out your life as a big 'fùck you' to death.

i have NOBODY irl to trust.

Ok I won't