Since I'm demifluid...
Girl mode
1. Stuffed animals
2. make up
3. I want to pet all the cute animals
4. Cuddles
5. Fanfic and fictional character obsessions
6. Wanting to be comfy, wanting to feel safe and loved.
Guy/boy mode version 1
1. Wanting to protect others I care about.
2. Wanting to look tough and be tough. *something really annoying happens* Either in my head or out loud to some degree: I will f-ing fight you! Dont make me, cus I f-ing will! You don't know what your messing with bud! I'm not scared of you! *hopefully trying to stop the anger cus it's not healthy*
3. Knives *plays with knife*
4. A lot of Eyeliner
5. Craving alcohol, nicotine, and to wear a hoodie more than I typically do
I'd describe this mode as like emo mixed with some greaser attitude and a splash of wearing hoodies both for comfort and to try to do something about any dysphoria.
Boy/guy mode version 2
1. Wanting to protect but is more of a eloquent respectful gentleman. Fighting is beneath me.
2. Suits
3. Alcohol
4. Internal judgment that I then try to counter act in my head cus wtf that's not OK.
5. Leave me alone, I'm reading.
Crossdressing as a boy... mode
1. Suits, vests, ties, dress shoes
2. Leather, boots, and sleeveless shirts
3. Masculine gothic or emo makeup
4. Wanting to look tough, or cool or sophisticated (depending on my mood). My clothes are a very big deal and that's where my brain is at more that half of the time.
5. Loneliness and self doubt: *sighs* I wish I had someone to do this with. I bet it'd be really fun to have someone to crossdress with and I bet it'd be nice to cuddle up to a man dressed in feminine clothes while I'm in a suit. Gawd I'm lonely... There's got to be something wrong with me right?... *Googles women crossdressing as men to try not to feel so alone but not finding much of anything*
Crossdressing as a girl... mode (while experiencing no dysphoria)
1. Damn I look good
2. Dresses, skirts, and fishnets
3. Walking in some heels like a drag queen
4. Barbie has nothing on me girl
5. Makeup and hair
Nonbinary
1. Wanting to just be a person. Is probably self conscious about myself.
2. Deep in thought about various things
3. Wanting short and colorful hair.
4. Please make the dysphoria go away...
5. Likely unconciously trying my best to balance out (neutralize) boy and girl mode a bit to keep peace.