Sylvia, you are very much cared about here in this stream. Please don't hurt yourself. While we may not always know how to help or what to say, we still care about you. Please do not delete. If you need help, please reach out to Chaws or Jay or anyone else you feel comfortable with. Things can get better if you give it the time to do so. Eventually, you will be old enough (if you let yourself live) and you will be able to move out of there and once your out of there, you can start a new life, a better life. If you don't think you can wait that long, please consider going to a youth shelter or something to get away.
(Posting from a hotel room. I do not have wifi at home and am currently traveling so please be patient with replies from me. I also had 8 vodka cocktails tonight so apologies for any misspellings. I'm legally old enough so no laws were broken.)