no i lean on other people too much i need to stop being lazy
and the fact that recently nobody is even doing what i've asked them to is a clear sign of that
it's ok
the fact that i'm even mad about this just goes to show that i'm f**kin weak
i'm like an ant except it doesn't know how go go out and get its own food so it just asks the other ants to get food for it and gives them nothing in return