okay first of all u are super nice and so so pretty!! and you are very supportive and such a good friend. pls dont take this personal. im sorry.
however please understand you cannot be everyones #1, and that is okay. you don't have to be the one that went through the most, you do not have to be the best user to everyone, and you do not have to change urself into an image you think is good but then like not have any progress. self work is working on yourself and you get to determine what you should change and do it. idrk where i am getting at this. i think you are a very very nice person. periodt.