I have been feeling really dead inside and like I am nothing like what I used to be. I used to be so happy, so energetic, and very grateful to be alive but now I’m completely the opposite of it. I am depressed, less energetic, and wanting to die. I know all of you care for me very much but I just feel like I’m a waste of time and money. I am thinking about how I could be happy again, thinking about how I could do better in life, and stop wishing for demise. I just don’t know how to express my bottled up feelings emotions so I made this announcement.