I don't care about your answer, I only care that you've given thought into it.

I just remembered this “philosophy” of mine: try to keep a balance
If you focus too much on the dark side of life, you’ll eventually forget the meaning of life. But if you focus too much on the bright side of life, you’ll lose touch of reality and what’s truly important
And as for a good death… I don’t think there’s such a thing. You’ll die later in life anyways

Both of them have one answer.

You're happy in the end

And, may I ask, how might one achieve happiness?

idk Im not happy

Perhaps I can give you some guidance through the socratic method.

Do you think that internal peace could have something to do with happiness?

Is it possible to achieve happiness? If so, is it possible to sustain it?

Is happiness Really the thing we should strive for in life?