Yeah, I was to talking to my ex whos my best friend and they said that they never actually liked me but didn't break up with me because they didn't want to put me in a depressive state. I took this horribly because I'm not an attractive person all but I thought I was doing good since I thought I was in 2 relationships. But now I'm back to thinking I'm stupid because now both relationships I've been in they were both fake. Now I feel like I hate my best friend and I'm not doing that good.