:(

Damn. My brother is younger. But I don’t have to hang with him next week.

i hate my brother, because he abuses me mentally every single day

:( I feel bad, I hope you feel the best you can, no one deserves that kind of pain

thank you. But i deserve it

Why do you deserve it?

i just do, i've done shit

To quote the great American philosopher Homer J Simpson, "You can't keep beating yourself up over this. Just beat yourself up once and move on!"
He may just be a cartoon but he's got a point.

to late

It can never be too late to move on, but you have to want to.

Is there any way for you to make amends?

probably not

Probably not means possibly so. Acknowledging what you did is the first half. The second half is expressing remorse and the desire to remedy the situation with the parties concerned. Whether they accept the apology is beside the point.

It's also important to try to forgive yourself. I carry baggage, specifically over the way I mistreated my younger brother when we were kids, and even though he forgave me years ago I still struggle to lay down that burden. Even he doesn't want me to but...it's like it's part of my identity to beat myself up over things past me did. But I do try to let go of it.

Tell him to stfu

I can't, my parents will probably kill me if i say that

call 911 or tell your parents

If you're brother is abusing you again and making you feel suicidal, run away, it's better than suicide

Pls don't krill your self

I cant run away, bro if i ran away, my parents will have the whole army looking for me

Hm

yep