I HAVE A MUCH EASIER TIME ENGAGING WITH
DISASTER THAN WITH SUCCESS. DISASTER IS
THE ONLY TIME WHEN MY PERPETUAL ANXIETY
AND DEPRESSION DON'T FEEL MISPLACED; THERE'S A GREAT COMFORT IN FINDING
AGREEMENT BETWEEN MY INNER AND OUTER
WORLDS, EVEN IF THAT AGREEMENT IS THAT
THINGS HAVE COMPLETELY GONE TO SHIT