No, in no way do I have, or ever said that I have, "lasting happiness" but at least I'm not crying
24/7, cutting myself, or over eating/under eating.
I've thought about killing myself more than I've thought about anything else. My brain was constantly filled with pain and suffering.
"Why me? What have I done to deserve this?
I shouldn't even exist. I should just die."
So many thoughts going through my head...
Why is it so wrong for me to cling on to the only thing in this word that has made life worth living?
No, HRT doesn't magically make happiness appear. But it's a god-damned start at least.
People going through what I have gone through, or even worse, sometimes kill themselves because they don't think it's worth all the trouble. Dealing with people like you, and having to hide themselves. No, HRT doesn't make everything magically better. It gives purpose in the lives of those who didn't think it was possible.
HRT itself isn't happiness, it's the bridge out of the sorrow.